Day 18~ 31 Day Challenge

Day 18~ 31 Day Challenge

How do you view yourself image?

Now that I am an adult and I know who I am. I am the most glorious, beautiful, wonderful , amazing being that has ever graced this earth. Yea, who am I kidding? We all have flaws about ourselves that we would want to change or alter. I had A LOT growing up. It took me till I was in my mid twenties to figure out who I am and to appreciate my flaws.

Growing up kids can say the meanest things and can be so cruel. I was made fun of for so many different things, things now that I love the most about myself. I was called n*gger lips because my lips are big. I’ve always been made fun for my weight, even when I was skinny (long ago people lol) people would still call me fat and other horrible names. I’ve been made fun of because I am bald, buck teeth or gap tooth, hairy and so on. But those things don’t bother me that much anymore. Yea, my weight is a constant struggle. But does that change who I am on the inside? Does that make me a bad person because I have a second helping at dinner?

The answer is NO! I have learned that the things people find flawed about me are the thing that I love the most about myself.

I love that I have full, luscious lips. Ask anyone who has ever kissed me. I have never had any complaints. I love my gap. If I didn’t have my gap, I think my beautiful smile would be off. I love not having hair anymore (don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t mind having it again). I love that I don’t have to go get it cut anymore (Sorry Marlene). I can shave it myself. I don’t have to worry about covering my bald spot anymore. I am not my hair. I love my short stubby legs. I have great legs. Muscular and strong. I love my hairy chest (I’ve always been a hairy chest lover). My “gay” voice is the voice of an angel. As you can plainly see I love myself. You can say I am being conceited, but I am working with what God gave me.

I can let those things bother me. I can get plastic surgery. I can go back to throwing up. I can take another handful of diet pills. I can do all those things change my appearance, but why?

I am so blessed when so many are not. I have 2 eyes so I can see the beauty in things. I have 2 strong legs to walk on. I have a big mouth, so I can speak words of love and encouragement. I have 2 ears to listen and learn. I have 1 heart to love. God made me exactly how I am supposed to be.

I have a quote that I made up a long time ago. “I am not perfect, I am perfectly flawed”. To me that means I have lots of perfections, perfections that are flawed. Perfections that are so perfect to me, that others would just look over. I am perfectly flawed.

“I like how god made me, I have always had a switch in my walk and music in my talk. And if I go tomorrow I will go happy. You know why? Cause I got out this world when I was supposed to, to like yourself and to love some damn body because I can.” ~Holidays Heart

Always LOVE YOUrself, I do.

Nick