Day 10. 31 Day Challenge.

Discuss your first love and first kiss.

My first love was for a boy named Josh C. I was head over heels for him. He was tall, brown hair, green eyes, Italian. The football/baseball jock. He was F-I-N-E!

I would watch him from my balcony every morning to see if he was going to school. If I didn’t see him walking to the bus stop, I would try to “be sick”, so I could stay home too. That “love” was my first glimpse into knowing I was different. I needed to be around him, I yearned to be by his side. I wanted to be his “girlfriend” LMAO! I fell hard for him and for a long time. I would say age 9-17. 9 years, I was gaga over him. As I got older, I became bolder. Asking him to hang out. We would go to lunch, hang out at his house, you know the normal “guy” stuff. Little did he know I was jonesing over him. Man , it’s so funny to talk and think about this. I was so young. I used to leave love songs on his BEEPER voicemail. LMMFAO!

1. Kissing You by Total

2. Anytime, Anyplace by Janet Jackson

3. He’s Mine by Mokenstef

4. Before I let you go by Blackstreet

5. Weak by SWV

6. I will always love you by Whitney Houston

And all those other 90’s R&B love songs. I would leave like 5 in a row, LMAO! Awe, to be young and in love.

I actually had to put Blackstreet on just now. Memories. As I got older, I learned that you can’t fall for a straight guy, because his feelings could never, would never be the same. And F.Y.I know I don’t want to be a girlfriend now, I like being a boy. Get your minds right. Ha!

My first kiss was GROSS. Ha! His name was Yah Yah (I know, don’t laugh). His breathe smelled like garlic. Heather and I went to Denny’s in Roseville. We stalked him for like 3 days, HAHAHA! The last night, we waited for him to get out of work. He came strolling out, and all I could do was say “HI” and he was like “HI”, and I left it at that. Heather wasn’t having it, I made her sit in the car for like 3 hours waiting, she says in the background “OH HELL NO, I DID NOT SIT HERE FOR YOU TO PUSS OUT”. So Yah Yah says “So you wann my number” (He was Arabic) I say yes, and he gives it to me. The next day I called him and he took me to dinner. After dinner, I told him I had to get home, so he says “Cain I kees you”, I was so excited and nervous. He kissed me and in my head I’m thinking “Ewe, his breathe stinks and he just bit my lip”. He was trying to get fresh, but I wasn’t that kind of boy, I was only 16 turning 17. I went home and called Heather ASAP. It was a nice kiss, but it’s one I will always remember. Ha! I dated him for 4 months, he turned out to be CRAZY. LOL! Like seriously, he was trying to turn me into a house wife at 16. HAHA! You can’t tame a 16 year old or hold him down. HA!

That was my first love and first kiss.

There is nothing like first loves and kiss, but there is great comparison. I’ll never forget my first kiss or “I love you” from Mike. That took my breath away , that really swept me off my feet, that was my “finally” moment.

Oh too be young again, and know what I know now…

Love, 9 and 16 and 30 year old,

Nick xoxo